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When I start posting in my blog a lot, it usually means one of two things:

A)  My life has finally calmed down and things are not as hectic, so I have time to post

or

B)  I have a paper or project I have to work on, and I really don’t want to do it, so I’m procrastinating.

Today’s reason is number B.

I DON’T WANT TO WRITE ANOTHER PAPER!!!!!

*sigh*

So, this is what is distracting me in my room right now:

Distraction #1:  THERE IS A WASP IN MY ROOM!!!!!!!!  😦

Distraction #2:  My roses look like they’ve been lynched!  (Or that they’ve hung themselves…)

Distraction #3:  My flowers bloomed!!!  Soooo cuuuuute….

Okay, now I’m going to find something else to distract me…

I’ve been enjoying a very nice day of procrastinating a huge paper I have to write as soon as I get my butt to the library.   My boyfriend made me steak and eggs for breakfast, I made a delicious egg scrambler w/ avacado for lunch, and my geranium is going to bloom some flowers!  Plus, the sun came out after a crazy rain storm.  Will all the happiness be over as soon as I start this paper?  I’m about to find out…


And blog neglect ensues…

But only 3 more weeks of crazy hectic school/work life before the school portion will be over!  Whoohoo!!  I must admit, I am not very eager or enthused about school anymore, and sometimes I worry that after all this time and money, I’m not going to even go into/like this field. I think the problem is that my main interest is counseling, not social work, so this hasn’t really been the education I was hoping for.  But that’s what I get for studying social work instead of counseling…

The good news is, it’s Good Friday, and Sunday is Pascha!  Almost exactly a year ago I was chrismated and baptized into the Eastern Orthodox Church, and it’s crazy to think it’s already been a year. I’ve barely scratched the surface as to what it means to live as an Orthodox Christian, but one thing I’ve learned–I am not a “great Christian” at all like I used to (foolishly) think. Don’t even ask me about my lenten experience…  But maybe starting with God’s mercy is where it needs to begin.  (Thank goodness for His mercy.) And I guess if anything, this brings me back to the realization that it’s not all about me in the first place…

The other good news is, I got to go to Chicago last weekend, and I had the most incredible time I’ve probably had since this 2011 year began. It was SUCH a breath of fresh air and truly a gift to get to visit with a number of incredible friends including:

Xiaoxiao

Holly (taken w/ my brand new [awesome] Samsung Galaxy Pad)

Anna (taken w/ her nephew right before we hit the road to Chicago…it was very sunny…he really was happy…)

Phila (Who agreed to a photo shoot, so if you want more of this handsome hunk, keep your eye out for the soon-to-come Phila blog post)

and last but not least, May (more of May to come, too)

I stayed at my childhood friends, Drew and Zach’s place in Wicker Park, but unfortunately, didn’t get any pictures of them.  😦 Hopefully next time!

Well, enough daydreaming about Chicago for now.  Back to poopey papers…

Be sure to check back soon for more Chicago daydreaming with me!

Camera: Canon t2i

Lens: 24-70mmL

I don’t know why, but I’m just not in a picture mood this week.  I took a break from the week in photos last week, and now I can’t find my point and shoot, so I guess this week will be another week off, too.

In other news, this is my first year participating fully in Great Lent, as I was chrismated and baptized into the Eastern Orthodox Church last Easter (which comes right after Lent.)  On a surface level, what this means is that I’m going to be on a vegan diet until Pascha (Easter).  But obviously it means a lot more than just that.  What, exactly does it mean then?  Well, that’s something I’m still in the process of understanding and figuring out.  So hopefully more on that later…

For now, I end with a quote I read tonight by a Catholic saint that I found really challenging:

“Love for our neighbor consists of three things: to desire the greater good of everyone; to do what good we can when we can; to bear, excuse, and hide other’s faults.” –St. John Vianney

That last one is the one that really struck me.  I can’t even count how many times I bitched about and exposed people’s faults this week.  From my professors, to my boss, to my own family members.  😦  I hardly realized it was wrong at the time, but after reading this quote, I realize how unloving it really was.

I’m going to really try and work on this one for a while.

How about you?  In what ways have you been challenged to be more loving lately?

I had a really nice start to my morning today.  My friend, Diane, invited me to be her guest at a tea ceremony for her Japanese aesthetics class.  It was really peaceful, and very traditional.  Sadly, I didn’t take any pictures, but you can check out the UIUC Japan House at their blog.

Well, time to go work on my drug paper I’ve been putting off for three weeks…I just changed my topic from crack vs. cocaine laws to methamphetamine problems in Asia, so I’m more excited now about writing it.  Whoo!

As simple as it is, choosing to wake up in the morning at a decent and consistent hour has done wonders for my week.  Without trying to tackle any of my other problems besides the waking up thing, a lot of them have improved due to simply waking up.  My mood is significantly better, I’m being more productive, and I’m feeling less tired and groggy throughout the day.  I’m eating healthier, taking my vitamins, and finding myself with more free time.  I even went out with a friend last night and didn’t feel stressed about school work!  I’m sure the warmer weather is a contributing factor as well, but I really am beginning to become sold on this whole morning person thing.

In other news, as I mentioned, it is extremely warm this week!  It is so warm, I sat outside today without a jacket and ate some toast w/ raw honey and cinnamon.  It was lovely.  I guess one thing good about the cold is that it really helps you to appreciate warmth.

On that note, since I’m not as bitter about the winter right now, I’ll post up some pictures I took last week when there was still snow on the ground.  I wanted to get some pictures before the snow melted, so I took a ride out to the country with Hannah and to our surprise, we found some horses!

 

 

 

Although the second one is my favorite, I get a total kick out of the last one.  He turned his head and looked directly at me with his one eyeball right as I shot the picture!  The look on his face makes me very curious to know what he was thinking…

Besides the horse pictures, we only got a couple barns, because it was so cold out.  I wasn’t too crazy about any of them, but I’ll put up this one just for kicks.

 

Well, I’m off to teach some piano lessons now.  Happy Friday everyone!

Camera: Canon t2i

Lens: 24-70mm 2.8L

Postprocessing: Lightroom 3

I’ve been enjoying a nice morning view from my desk as I organize my thoughts and get ready for the week.  I’ve been very unhappy and unsatisfied with a number of things in my life lately, but I haven’t done much about it except complain.  After some talks with my priest and my boyfriend, I’ve decided to take some serious steps to change my attitude and my daily habits in hopes that, as a result, my life won’t constantly be plagued with guilt and disappointment in myself.

Step one is simply just to get up in the morning, every morning, before 9am.  If you know me, you’re probably laughing right now and don’t believe this is actually  going to happen, as this has been a struggle that I’ve been trying to overcome almost my entire life.  I have a terrible habit of sleeping til noon every day that I can get away with, which gives me barely enough time to rush around frantically, not get enough to eat, speed the entire drive to class, all only to be late.  It’s a bad way to start every day, to say the least.  On top of this, by the time class is over, it is already dark out, and I feel like my whole day is gone.  Then I go to work until 8 or 9, and by the time I get home, I’m too tired to do anything, so I just lay around in my bed.

I have to admit that this is a very unsatisfying pattern of daily events.  I know that I have more potential than to be spending all of my free time in bed.  But it’s so tempting and so easy, so I have persisted in these unhealthy behaviors.  Well, as I said, it is a time for all of this to end, and this is my official declaration to the world.  (Well, I should say, all parts of the world that have internet and access to WordPress.)  So I conclude this post by saying, this week, I will get up and out of bed no later than 9am every morning.  Better life, here I come!

 

Camera: Canon Powershot SD780

It’s been a cold winter, so I’ve been spending a lot of time indoors hibernating.  I’ve also been thinking again for the first time in…a few years, actually.  I mean, really thinking.  I haven’t yet figured out what all I’m thinking, exactly, but one thing I am realizing these days is that if I spend less time thinking and obsessing constantly about what I think I should be doing with my time in order to be more productive, I’m a much happier, more peaceful person who actually gets more accomplished in the end.

This time last year I was participating in my self-invented “Get Awesome Campaign,” which involved trying to do a million things every day that would help me become a more “awesome” person.  (Study Korean, practicing singing, practice violin, learn to bake and cook, eat healthy, exercise, study Spanish, etc.)  To say the least, I did not become one bit more awesome in any of these areas, and if anything, I just felt more badly about myself as each day passed and I failed to do what I had set out to accomplish.  So I’m done with this.  No more taking myself so seriously!

These days I’m starting to realize that a person does not have to have several skills or accomplish several feats in order to matter in this world. The mere act of existing is valuable.

On a shallower note…I wish I was in the Bahamas right now!!!

 

 

Stay warm, everyone!  🙂

Camera: Canon t2i

Lens: 24-70mm 2.4L

Postprocessing: Lightroom 3

This picture signifies the fact that I’m getting OLD.  I used to babysit this girl when she was five.  Now she’s all grown up!  *sniffles*

You know, it’s amazing how things change with time.  Like this tree that used to be a twig when I planted it with my dad seventeen years ago.

Or my childhood backyard that didn’t used to have a garden…

But now does…

I think I like change.  It keeps life interesting.  Most of all, I’m glad that I’ve changed.  And that I am always changing.

How have you changed?

Cameras:  Sony DSC-H50, Holga 135BC

When I looked out at the sky today, it struck me how crazy it was that when I looked to the left, the sky looked like this:

…but when I looked to the right, it looked like this:

It reminded me that everything in life is all about perspective.  My Chinese grandmother always says, “some good, some bad,” and this is starting to become my life theme.  In everything, whether it be people, experiences, places, etc, there are good things and there are bad.  Which are you going to choose to focus on today?

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